The Emotional Drug

In the last six months, I’ve been reading an ungodly amount of fanfiction (Harry Potter, Naruto, and Fullmetal Alchemist mostly) and it worries me. I mean, lots of people read and write fanfiction. I’ve even written some Harry Potter fanfiction myself, and the response was overwhelmingly positive.

What really worries me is that I found myself going through withdrawals whenever I would have to go to work, spend time with my wife, friends or family. The fun read had turned into an addiction before I knew that it could. The signs were all there, but I just kept thinking, “People can’t get addicted to reading, can they? Not in a bad way.”

Lots of people say, “Oh, I’m addicted to reading.” Don’t believe me? Just google it. The Meme Gods will provide.

No, this was beyond bad. I’ve actually had to prevent myself from reading fanfiction except for maybe one story a week. This may sound ridiculous, but what I was doing wasn’t healthy.

It wasn’t so much that I was addicted to reading as I was addicted to how the characters made me feel. Their sad experiences that led to a final victory made my heart soar. It was like an emotional drug; I couldn’t get enough.

This was a hard-learned lesson. I hope I never have to deal with an addiction again. I’ve never been addicted to alcohol, drugs, etc. This whole months-long experience has been altogether surreal.

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